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Friday, October 5th, 2001
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11:41 pm - What is it I want?
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The answer to this question is too hard. Even for a genius like me..but anyways, it seems like I've tied up all loose ends with people (except Julie, but then again, I don't care) I get a long with everyone, I'm okay with home life, who really cares about a relationships, I'm a freshman. Is that my deal? Do I actually want a relationship? I mean, I know I don't need one, but looking at most of my friends, I mean it's not even the first nine weeks and some of them have been through 2 or 3 guys. They seem happy, content with life. I don't understand! We're freshman, dating sophmores and juniors? Was my dad right when he said they all want one thing? Or do some of them actually want...or better yet "need" a relationship like us girls do? I don't think so, but now that I think about it, I think some of my girl friends are in it for the same reason they are. What's a 17 year old doing with a 14 year old anyway? Well, I guess I could prove the case, with a past relationship, but that also turned out to be meaningless. I mean, we never went past kissing, and he surely didn't ask to go further. It was nice, I didn't feel pressured, but I think at our age, that's all it is, is a bunch of hormones, I don't really think these freshman girls, dating these sophmore, junior, maybe senior guys are thinking about marraige. So it's pointless, but it's still something we want, and/or need. Makes sense? I guess so..haha.
I went and saw Zoolander tonight. It's a funyn, funny movie. Although I think you have to be as stupid as say, me and Randi are. Wow we thought it was funny but people around us didn't think so. I recommend it definantly, ecspecially if you like Ben Stiller.
Okay, well, I'm off to bed. It's early,I know, but I'm sleepy, and I do have lots of homework to be doing...wow I'm a nerd.
current mood:  curious
current music: Ring of IM's
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2:34 pm
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Yep, it's a big three day weekend, pretty sweet huh? I guess, if you have something to do. Ya see, my problem is I always wait until the last minute to make plans, or decisions, so sometimes I sit at home, it's all very sad. I'm probably gonna try and hang out with Shelley tonight. I say "try" because I more than likely won't be succesful..she'll be hanging out with Angela her new best friend...Angela is not a good influence. I've known this girl since 4th grade and even back then she seemed uh..a little more uh...mature...than all of us. I think she's the one that told me things about oral sex, either her or Richie..haha..nah, but that's sick. I mean no 4th grader should know that, much less practice it! She never wore underwear either...she wore skirts though..but no underwear. Okay, enough about her, we can all tell how much I dislike her by now. That's who Shelley hangs out with all the time now. It kinda makes me sad. I found myself a "new best friend" (Randi) but it still kinda hurts that we barely talk, and when we do, it's not always nice. It also hurts to hear people that use to be Shelley's friends, but are still mine, say things about her. And I know most of it is because she hangs out with Angela. Now, I can't exactly tell her "Hey I think you should stop hanging out with Angela, I don't like her." She knows I don't like her, and the worst part is, she doesn't care. Whoever can get her weed the fastest...sad but I'm pretty sure it's true. I guess everyone changes, for the better or worse. They do. I'm sure I have, which I'm not sure, but I'm sure I have. Anyway, back onto my first topic, my weekend..I refuse to go to Ricky's...no way. I have my reasons, maybe not good ones, but I do. Then there's always going to a party with Randi and Kevin...but you see the problem(s) with that would be A. Drinking will be available, not saying I have to do it, or I don't have to but this leads to my second point..
B. Brandon will more than likely be there, and if you know anything about this..we'll be linked to having sex which brings me to my third and final point
C. There is a really good chance that Julie will be there. Julie+alcohol+Brandon, isn't safe. So, maybe me and Randi will just go hang out or something, and she'll do something with Kevin tomorrow (she's a good friend like that)I dunno, I'll find something, as for the rest of the weekend, playing it by ear. Well, I'm gonna go eat something..hang out...find some plans.
current mood:  indescribable
current music: my mom...talking...fighting and what not
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| Wednesday, October 3rd, 2001
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6:31 pm - This is how you remind me...
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I was thinking a lot today ( I know it's pretty crazy) but anyways, I was just thinking about different people in my life, and how they have affected me as a person. I don't think I'll use most of my examples, because it's sorta personal. But I know Amanda (my sister) just wrote a journal about how she hopes to change people's lives through Jesus. Well, I just wanted to let her know, she's taught me a lot about it, and other things too. I'm thankful for that. For Richie, well, I'd hate to sit here and say this, but he's taught me more through his mistakes, and actions, then from his words. Elizabeth, she's awesome. For a while she was my best friend, but since she got a "serious" relationship and we started high school, we've kinda grown apart, which makes me sad, because we had some awesome times. We were such retards together. It was great. But things change, I think we're all realizing that. I go to high school and had to take a step back for a couple of weeks, just to realize that I have to grow up, whether I want to or not. Sometimes I'm glad I am, but others I just wanna be a kid again. Not caring about everything, not having to worry about girls saying I had sex with boys, and then having to serve the "big girl" consequences of it all. It's all kinda sad in a way. Now I know Amanda is sitting here reading it (because I think she's the only one who reads mine) thinking "Allison, you're a moron, I'm in college..just you wait.." And you know what? I think I will. I think I'm gonna take as long as possible before I end up in college, or even worse, completley on my own. Well, I'm gonna go, I'm tired, and I have lots of homework to do : ( Out like a light.
current mood: indescribable
current music: "This how you remind me" By Nickleback (Great song)
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| Sunday, September 30th, 2001
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5:36 pm - T-K-O
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Well, people should learn to keep their mouths shut. I know that doesn't justify what I did though. There's this girl who for purposes we'll call her "Jill". Well, "Jill" has really had a problem with talking about people. She walks around thinking if she knows what's going on in everybody's lives, people will like her more. Well, "Jill" I guess heard some stupid rumor that me and this guy had sex. Well, for a freshman in high school reputation is an important thing. One bad thing spread about you and it can follow you throughout high school. Well, I confronted her about it, and I believe her exact words were "I don't f-ing believe you, Because (name here) told me otherwise." Well, when I asked him about it, he denied it (of course right?) and I got even more mad, because I had several questions asked by some friends. Well, I asked her to stop yet again. So did (name here)Well, she didn't and by tuesday morning I couldn't take it anymore. I had too many people bothering me about it. I walked up to her and asked her why she was saying all that crap. Well, she yelled something about not talking any crap, so I let my anger get to me and I hit her. Hard. In the eye. She tried to hit me back but I just kept hitting her I guess, I really wasn't thinking. She hit me a couple of times, in the back of the head. I hit her in the eye, the cheek, the lip, and then the eye/cheek area again. That's when my friend pulled me off of her and she ran. I was so so so mad. I ended up getting suspended for three days and a ticket. Well, I had three days to think about it, although people went up to Richie and Elizabeth expressing gratitude because they see it as her deserving it since 5th grade. I got a call from my friend saying I cracked "Jill's" cheekbone and her mother isn't too happy about it. Well, I know people tell me she deserves it, but not a broken cheekbone. Well, my friend witnessed the entire fight and it seems "Jill's
mother is TRYING to sue everyone, including my friend, me, and the school. I don't think I'm going out on a limb by saying she won't get very far with it, considering it was Disorderly conduct, which means she hit back, and not assault. Plus, we're both minors, and she doesn't have a good behavior history. That's really what's been going on. I'm not too worried about it but oh well. I have school tomorrow ( I went back on friday) I just want to get this semester over with. I guess I'm gonna go finish up on some homework.
current mood:  blah
current music: We are the Champions..Don't ask
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| Tuesday, September 4th, 2001
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5:01 pm - Tuesday
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I know I haven't posted in a while. It's been too...okay I'm not gonna lie, I forgot I had this account thing, but I thought I'd start using it again. Amanda is gone, she's in the big leagues now...College. I honestly can not wait until I get to go to college! I really want to go out of state, Texas makes me mad. I dunno, I'll probably end up going to a Texas school because of the price and all, we'll see. I still have four years though! Four! That's crazy! I kinda like this guy who's in a couple of my classes. I dunno..he's cute and all but I don't really talk to him, maybe I should, I dunno. I'm really bad about that whole thing. Guys are stupid anyway. Oh well, maybe I'll talk to him, maybe not. I'm gonna go help Liz "curl her hair" because it's not working for her. She needs the magic fingers of Allison Wells, oh yes.
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| Tuesday, August 14th, 2001
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4:26 am - Anything for a friend..
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Why is it, when you just start thinking that you and a close friend of yours are as close as you can get, they have to go away. In this case, it was Alex. I've mentioned Alex before, he's a very good friend of mine who is moving to Flordia. I've now marked it to be the Devil's land. I really really really really don't want him to go! It's like 4:30 in the morning right now and I'm up. I got back from his going away party around 12:30am. Then Trent, Jon, Nick, and Steven all came over. I like those guys, they're good people. Anyways, they stayed for a little while then they all went back to Nick's. Alex leaves at 7:00am today and at 6 I'm gonna go try and beg my mom's boyfriend to take me by his house because Chris and Nick asked me to come along with them to say a final goodbye. They better show up or else...no, they will. Nick (different one than mentioned previously) has been friends with Alex for almost 10 years, and Chris and Alex have been best friends since 5th grade. I was flattered they asked me to come along, seeing as how they've all been friends forever and me and Alex have only known eachother for less than a year! Me and Alex are really close though, and it really, really, really SUCKS that he has to go. So, I'm trying my hardest to stay awake. If I fall asleep I won't get up. Anyways, I have another hour before I go to begging. I'm gonna miss Alex so much! We shared some good ol' times..sure did..okay, now I'm just trying to stay awake by typing! Maybe I'll go find some random people to take out the anxiousty on AIM. Yep..so Later.
current mood:  crushed
current music: With or Without you (purely instrumental)
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| Thursday, August 2nd, 2001
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8:52 pm - Is it thursday already?
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Well, I guess it is Thursday. I've done a lot of things since the last time I wrote, or typed, whatever you want to call it. Anyways, to sum up some "highlights" I got my ears pierced,I went to Dallas, I went school clothes shopping (argh) and I sat around doing nothing I guess.
Today I went to Alex's house with Trent. He drove. It was fun, I'm glad I got to see him. I hate it that he's moving. At this point I try not to think about it, although I probably should. See, me and Alex just got to be good friends, and it sucks. I think we'll stay in touch though.
Yeah well, it's been a long day, I need a hug..haha But anyways, I'm just gonna go.
current mood: gloomy
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| Saturday, July 7th, 2001
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8:43 pm - Good day...
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Today was pretty good. I woke up at like 1:30..that was good. I love sleeping in late..only sometimes though, because it sucks to waste your day. Anyways, I called shelley and we decided to hang out. So..I got a shower and dressed, and did my hair and stuff, then they came and picked me up. We hung out at her house for a little while. She trimmed my hair, and that feels good because the tips of my hair were looking fried. I'm trying to grow my hair out..we'll see. That probably won't last long because I get imapatient and decide to cut it..often. Anyways, we went out to eat with her entire family, Uncle, two aunts, three cousins and grandparents, and two close family friends. It was nice. The waiter hit on me. He had to have been 18 because he was serving the adults alcohol. He just asked for my phone number and Shelley's dad told him to go cool off somewhere.. Sometimes, it creeps me out to have older guys hit on me. I dont know why..I guess because I am still pretty young. I never actually embarass them by telling them I'm only 14. Last night att he movies I did actually...these guys from montgomery would not leave me, shelley, or my friend Randi alone..ecspecially one of them, he had just graduated and he was really high..as in he smoked alot of pot before he went to the movies..so I just finally looked at him and said I-Am-four-teen-years-old. And he told me he didnt care. So finally I just left and we all stood by the cop..haha...yeah, so that's pretty much been the past couple days...lot's of fun.. yeah so. That's all..
current mood:  cheerful
current music: The air conditioner.
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| Friday, July 6th, 2001
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12:58 am - Ack..
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Well, it's thursday again... just another thursday right? Not at all.. So I went to Old Navy with amanda to help her pick out something for the Nsync concert..I feel sorry for her for two reasons.. A. She's going to an Nsync concert..hopefull she'll realize why that's so wrong in the near future and B. She is with one of the most annoying girls I have ever come in contact with. I think she realizes that part. Yeah well, I was told I should update this...but believe me, life here isn;t too interesting here. I guess I can give you my long stupid night. I'm actually in a pretty bad mood..except Nick kinda cheered me up..he's so nice.. Anyways I talked to my ex-boyfriend Jamie/James whatever you want to call him. He honestly made me feel like crap. He told me that I hurt him worse than any other girl ever has and that I don't care about his feelings. I honestly didn't think I hurt him at all...our relationship WAS TWO WEEKS LONG! Come on.. Then I get the news that Shelley's pot smoking boyfriend told everyone that I am a "dyke" and made out with my friend Randi..a girl.. he also told everyone I was a huge snob and hated everyone who wasn't classified as a "prep" If you guys actually know me..I do not classify people, at all, infact I think it's stupid to. I TRY to be friend with everyone and when I can;t I just don' t talk to them, is that so bad? First thing in the morning though, I'm calling Shelley and we're calling Steven. I am so sick of him, he got on my nerves before, but now it's just so much worse... we'll see. Trent has decided that he now likes April..that bothers me for so many different reasons..the main one being, it would be typical for him to like her.. sounds weird i know. Well, I'm annoyed by my own self so I'm just gonna stop now. Oh yeah, mom my might be back tomorrow from the hospital...so that's good news.
current mood:  aggravated
current music: I want my hat back...Digger
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| Wednesday, July 4th, 2001
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10:11 pm - Oh yeah..
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Since I'm bored and have nothing else to do..I thought I'd add in one thing in my life that's bothering me..my mom is in the hospital..so if you guys get a chance pray for her health. Hopefully she'll be just fine, she goes in and out of the hospital alot for hr chrons disease..it's not good..okay, just thought I'd add that.
current mood:  worried
current music: still...fireworks
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9:55 pm - Happy? 4th of July..
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Ahh yes, it's 4th of July again..I'm sitting here..doing nothing...I know how surprising.. Nah but me and Shelley were SUPPOSE to hang out with some people, but that fell through and she had to go to some gay "cadillac"..amanda heh...thing with her mom. Her mom is honestly psycho..she has to be. She acts my age and pouts if she doesn't get her way. One time, I had gone to the doctor's recently for really bad allergies and got some "Allegra" and some prescription stuff. SO anyways, I was spending the night at Shelley's mom's house and she I guess looked through my bag and found my pills and called my mom! She was like "Rennie, I just want you to know that Allison has pills in her bag." So my mom was like.."Lucy, those are allergy pills" She is so nuts! She always gets on my nerves and tells me what to do..so when she tells me to go to shelley's room because she's trying to watch a movie or something, I just sit there and talk..Shelley doesnt say anything to her mom either, and that cadillacs me off. Oh wells! So I didn't want to go with her..and Trent TRIED to come home..he wasnt having much fun at this girls house. oh well..I kinda like being alone sometimes. Not all the time though..and Shelley is the closest friend I have..all my other friends act like they like me, but I'm pretty sure they talk about me. I don't care anymore. If they think to be "popular" is to talk about people, I don't want friends like that. I guess things would be a little better if I had a boyfriend..Sure, I like a few guys but they just don't know when to make their "move" so to speak. I've been talking to this one guy a lot, his name is Phillip. He's Shelley's boyfriend's best friend. He's really cool. Everytime Shelley and Stephen are on the phone and get in a fight, I'm usually over at Shelley's and he's at Steven's so we talk on the phone..and on the internet. I was suppose to hang out with him tonight, but shelley's mom blew it..heh..yeah he's shy but at least we make plans to hang out and stuff..some guys just don't know when to do that...but it's okay..they'll come around. I'm only a freshman (well about to be one) I think I'll live...I'm really shakey on the whole marriage/having your own family idea..I don't know why, I guess because over 50% of america is divorced..hopefully I''ll find a guy to change my mind? We'll see...Amanda invited me to go with her to her friend's house for a block party, but I decided to stay home alone tonight..think about some stuff.. Wish I could elaborate but I can't. Okay, I'm done complaining.
current mood: discontent
current music: Fireworks outside..
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| Monday, July 2nd, 2001
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2:30 am - So..
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So, I'm sitting here..being kinda bored. All I'm doing is talking to Phillip, Nick, and Chris..and I'm bored. Amanda is getting ready to go surprise wake her friend up and take her to IHOP. That's really nice, I want someone to do that for me someday. Well, maybe not, I get kinda mad when people wake me up at 3 o' clock in the morning, breakfast or not. Oh wells...so, I went out to lunch with My mom, Amanda, and Trent. That was loads of fun!..Actually, it was just okay...We went to Los cucos. I like that place, it's good. Mexican food is one of my favortie types..but I like Chinese the best. Is that weird? People always look at me funny when I say that. Oh well..I like it..that's all that counts. Yeah, sorry it's like 2:30am...yeah...so I'm bored. just like my day really..boring..it sucks I missed my swim but oh well..okay I'm stopping now..
current mood: bored
current music: huuuummmmm
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| Sunday, July 1st, 2001
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11:32 am - This sucks...
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Well, I missed my swim. We got there 15 minutes too late and I missed fly compeletley. IT SUCKS! I feel so crappy right now. I feel like I let my parents, and my coach down. I definantly let myself down though. Sure, I'll always have first in backstroke but fly is MY STROKE..and even coach told me that. He also told me that I have to start doing lots and lots of dry lands before high school swimming starts, and that if I work hard enough this next year I have a shot at anything I want to do in swimming. That made me feel better, but I still feel really disappointed in myself. Crotch (coach) said that I have to get up to 300 sit-ups and push-ups a day. We'll see about that...even if I can, I'm gonna be built like a freaken man,(I rhymed..) and that's scary. But of course I'm going to try, A. Because coach is the last person I would want to let down, and B. I want to accomplish something with swimming and not feel like I've wasted 9 summers. Well, I guess that's it for swimming this summer, it ended unfairly but now I have a month of sleeping in saturdays and traveling, since there is no more swim meets...oh wells..
current mood: disappointed
current music: My mom doing the dishes
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| Saturday, June 30th, 2001
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10:47 pm - Well...
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Okay, so me and my mom show up at Westfield High school around 6...but I don't end up swimming until around 6:45-7:00 so anyway, I ended up first...oh yes first place! Tomorrow...butterfly, I'm placed in the top ten some where..so hopefully I can bump myself up to good ol first...we'll see. Well, I'm here sitting at home, Richie and Liz get back tomorrow from frontier..that means no Amanda and Allison quality time anymore...I'll miss it with her away at college FOREVER...she's at the Mark Needs a Chick show..I'm sure she's having fun. I went to Shelley's house tonight...it made me mad..there's this guy names Mikey and he's liked me ever since 4th grade...he even wrote "I LOVE ALLISON WELLS" on his t-shirt in fifth, sixth, seventh, and eighth grade, the last day of school...so anyway, she kept bringing up these really stupid things I do..so he wouldn't like me, because she hates it when guys flirt with me and not her(He was on the phone)..I don't like him, but it's the point of it all! I didn't tell her I was upset about it, but I will I guess, or maybe I'm making too big of a deal out of this. Well, I'm thirsty so I'm gonna get something to quench my thirst..but not sprite..we don't have any.
current mood:  accomplished
current music: "Knock Knock Knockin' on heaven's doooor" over and over again in my head! Thanks Amanda..
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Well, I'm sitting here, waiting to go to finals for backstroke. See, they take the top 12 girls and they all race for medals..and stuff...I'm nervous...I did really really crappy in freestyle, but it's okay. Hopefully I'll do good, I'm trying to get pumped..ya know ready and stuff. I'm not THAT nervous...just a little..yeah well, I guess I'm gonna go now..wish me luck!
current mood:  anxious
current music: "Wake me up before you go go" Wham!
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| Friday, June 29th, 2001
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9:52 pm - Singing in the shower..
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Well, I went out to eat with my mom, dad, and sister Amanda...awkward sounding huh? It is kinda...I dunno I guess I'm just use to it..Anyways, we went to Landry's (sp)..it was good. Then took a bath and talked on the phone..wooo wee right? Not really, but I'm pretty nervous about tomorrow. I have this big swim meet...I might have said sometihing about it earlier..Anyway, I'm kinda nervous..wondering what I'm up against. See you have to make "qualifying times" and I actually did..in three events..Free (I'm swimming that tomorrow) Butterfly and Backstroke, and those I swim sunday..Oh well. Yeah...Anyways, I'm so bored. I'm talking to my kindergarden boyfriend that I haven't actually talked to since 3rd grade. It's kinda weird, but interesting to see how he's changed so much. I wonder if I've changed that much since then. Today Amanda showed me this crazy lady's online journal and she thinks she's Joan Crawford..it's crazy, Trent commented on it...it's pretty funny. Well I guess that's it for right now.
current mood: bored
current music: Amanda singing in the shower
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Yep, so today is my mom's birthday. She's turning 49 and she looks a lot younger. I hope people tell me that when I'm her age. So today I went to swim practice at 8:30..BIG swim meet tomorrow then I went to the mall with Shelley and Amber and bought some make-up from Clinique...yep, and then I bought my mom's birthday present. I got her black pearl earings. I'm a better daughter than SOME PEOPLE...you know who I'm talking about...rhymes with Smanda..Just kidding with ya. Hey, Richie and Liz aren't even home..haha...Yeah so did that and came back home. Good ol' Trent just left...when is he not over here right? Just kidding. Yeah, we're suppose to go out to eat for my mom's b-day (buca di beppos) I've been there..it's really good. I think she'll like it. Yeah well, I guess that's about it..
current mood: cheerful
current music: Thunder...I like that sound
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